One year ago today...

One year ago today, I got a phone call that changed my life. SMB's mom called and told me that SMB was gone. I cannot believe an entire year has passed. In some ways it seems like we were just dress shopping for my wedding and in other ways it seems like SO MUCH has happened that she should have been a part of.

It's so strange what can change in a year. On this exact day two years ago, SMB and I were basking in the sunny wonderfulness on a beautiful beach in the Dominican Republic without a care in the world. On this exact day one year ago, I lost that friend. Today, I'm married and pregnant. If we have a girl, she will have the same middle name as SMB.

Over the past year, SMB's mom has been writing a book about her life with and without SMB. It's a beautiful and heart-wrenching story. MommaM (that's SMB's mammy) has graciously let me be her editor. It's hard and wonderful to be involved in the project... One day when it's published, I hope everyone and their dog will read it, and love SMB as much as we do. I think that the book has helped MommaM and me in many ways. We have a really good reason to think about, talk about, and write about SMB's life - all the good and the bad stuff. I'm going to post an excerpt here soon. I haven't decided EXACTLY what to preview to my 6 readers, but I'm leaning toward her beautifully written Prologue.

In the meantime, here's one of MommaM's favorite pictures of SMB, one that I took while we were probably not very sober in the Dominican Repbulic 2 years ago...

But really... we were ONLY 29 at the time, and from what I understand, jumping on the bed while semi-intoxicated is perfectly acceptable.  At least it was when you were living it up with SMB because no fun was off limits.  I miss all of the fun.  I miss my friend.  

The vacation self portrait... on of many, but this one has both of our entire heads in it.  Good job us!  

That is all, 

~SBC